Saturday, June 09, 2007
Just wanted to blog a bit, to clear some thoughts.
But my wordpress blog was down. :(
So here I am, again.
GEEZ.
Had a long long long talk ~2h with Ng Lang Lang on the issue of Religion. LOLLL
I'll blog more about it when I have the time,
right now let's just move on.
And then I was mugging with Lin, Tubao and Mud.
Hmm, well,
it was more having fun and relaxing than serious studying to me. :Pp
And I needed that lar, g e e z.
And then what happened was,
it was a Friday night. Why go home early?
So Mud and Me went to CS Food Court to eat,
bought some alcohol, sat down in the dark opposite some block, and started binge... Drinking.
I wasn't drunk,
my face was just burning burning burning I felt all the heat searing on my face.
And we talked,
talked, talked.
You know how I hate talking to people,
people I just knew.
Otherwise,
I really loved talking. Talking. Talk-ing.
I think it's really sad you know.
I'm proud of the fact that I AM mature,
or at least I appear to be, or at least people think I AM.
Yet at the same time sometimes all I feel like, I'm still that idiot.
That idiotic lil kid who refuses to grow up, like deep DEEP inside.
Even though she finally knew, even forced to learn how to DEAL with the world,
like she's still an idiot inside.
Like sometimes all I want is to hold on to a moment forever.
Yet my rational mind tells me time is slipping away, by the moment.
Like sometimes all I want is to be with good company.
Yet my worrying mind thinks of the future and uncertainties and how bad it would be to lose something you hold on to dearly.
So why fall in, be involved in the first place?
I don't know.
I think nights do that to people,
when you don't have to pretend no more.
When all you're left with is your own company,
the cold hard truth you have to face. No running away.
After which I was - su bian - about heading home/ chilling out.
And Mud preferred the latter.
So we kinda headed to Tampines Mart Mac again.
N then we were kinda talking about our respective childhoods.
Like,
how different.
So it's incredible how we could even be talking of all this,
at that moment, of the billions and billions of people in the world. Throughout the entire course of human history.
我的冷漠比無情還涼
直到第一次有人用笑容把溫暖點亮
掀開了我無悔的青春
揭開了一個人的寂寞 給了我一片天空 收藏第一次的悸動你成了最動眼的點綴
往後的人生 我要用如何深情凝視的眼神
多少關懷多少等待多少無奈 來交換一次幸福的機會
我們還要走得多遠
要到多少年以後 我才會看破 這幼稚的溫柔
這一路的旅途 還要如何轉彎
還有多少波折
你才會幸福著
我才會快樂
我從來不會懂
人為甚麼會傷悲
感情有沒有對錯
你是我的誰
我還能做甚麼
該怎麼遺忘
該如何走開
該如何放下這絕望的愛
我放不下又走不開
在世界上最遙遠的距離以外
觀望時間的海
如何把記憶覆蓋
倒灌我所有的悲哀
沒有對白
靜默地等黑夜到來
我一個人自在
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Waiting for
http://i.ej.am/ to come online. :S
;rock YOU.
10:30 PM
