Sunday, March 11, 2007
I know I should be slapping myself even as I type this...
I watched The Pursuit of Happyness. @.@
It was average lar,
but when I saw the "If you want something, go get it. Period."
I'm like,
I know that's what I believe in.
But what happened to all my fighting spirit...? Like all I have left in this seemingly young-by-age body is world-weariness, fatigue, boredom. everything rotten or on the edge of going rotten ever since like,,,so long ago.
I don't know.
What is happiness?
Sometimes it's like,
you just don't think about the question,
subconsciously you just block it out - Because you are too afraid to face the truth. To take in your failures, short-comings, etc.
Ok you can just sub. the you with i. =.=
I mean,
it's like.
I don't really know how I'm going to rise up to all these.
So I'm just telling myself to take the easy way out.
When did I last feel like I could do anything, everything?
I need to do this.
I gotta do this.
Time to wake up.
Before reality still comes upon me no matter what,
before I have to face the pain of knowing I'll never become the person I wanna become, like I'll never be the STUDENT of a particular JC that was all I really ever wanted. ROARRR
One wrong step,
and you're stuck at that place down the social ladder forever.
It's a hard life,
tough world, filled with challenges more than you can handle.
So I'll really need to get my bearings right,
get a grip on myself.
I'm fine,
if I work hard - That's all I'll need to make it.
And working hard is the... HARDEST part of it all.
But WELL,
there's no other way around this.
;rock YOU.
11:29 PM
