Tuesday, February 27, 2007

一個軀體 兩個世界

一邊在陽光燦爛得無法無天
一邊在隱忍難過得毫無自覺




靈魂在喧囂里切割
故事在吵雜里分裂

所有的一切
終於在朦朧之中凝結



凝結成我無法言說的傷
凝結成我心的流浪

Why don't we just make believe?




Like we've never known sadness.

Like growing up doesn't mean saying good-bye to those things that you love*d.














The unbearable lightness of being.


Why am I alive when I supremely believe that life is fundamentally, basically, essentially, meaningless?


我只是有一點點難過
一點點失落 一點點困惑



不過我想我會很快好起來的

為了我自己
為了在我鄙視的這個世界我鄙視的這個生命繼續忘乎所以地驕傲下去






是不是心冰凍以後就能不再感覺痛?



我還是會大聲講話大聲笑大聲鬧

儘管我很知道 一切都已經完全不一樣







我再也不會是最初的自己



為甚麼總是有那麼一首歌
能輕易觸動心里的某一根弦
能讓我眸中的沙漠開始氾濫


---我們一直到最後才學會 哭泣時候誰安慰
而成長讓人覺得累

卻已沒有辦法後退



我想我很能明白四面楚歌這個典故


從小時候

離開了最初最幸福最快樂的那個世界以後







就持續地成長 持續著一場沒有硝煙沒有血流的戰役
只是一直持續地堆積著記憶的屍體

號角回蕩在我的心里 直到夢想靜默地變成了死亡的廢墟





啊我又能怎樣呢?


還不是繼續遺忘繼續虛偽繼續感傷
還不是告訴自己不要哭然後又忍不住淚流成河
還不是告訴自己沒甚麼大不了的陳恩嬌你就是一蟑螂怎麼都死不了然後又悲哀得死去活來

還不是一半明媚一半迷惘







反正 反正


只要我的信念不變

我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我不怕千萬人阻擋只怕自己投降




ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

;rock YOU.
4:07 PM

>>descY
chronicles of a genius
lifetime of the GREAT
legacy of perfection
epitome of intellect
embodiment of knowledge
legend of a modern human

breaking of the MYTH of the impossibility of success,
of static destinies,
of destituted fates,
of the inverse relationship btwn good looks & depth of thought =Pp

>>profileY

ENJIAO here =DD
trying to think of an ENGRISH name for myself...CIEL!?!? =DD

>>playlistY
all-time faves:
  • jia BY nan quan mama
  • wo ai ni, yuan fang BY S.H.E
  • life's a struggle BY shawn song
  • shi ren BY Z. Chen
  • heng xing de heng xin BY mayday
  • imagine u n me BY simple plan
  • glamorous sky BY mika
  • faint BY linkin park
  • lose yourself, crazy in love BY eminem

  • when i think of all-time faves i think of songs that DeFINE ME a person. ((=

    >>plugsY
    DEMON
    MIMI
    MEIXIN
    LINX2
    TUBAO
    GRASS
    S*X
    BAIII kia
    fiona THANK
    kung-fu master
    gordon da BITCH
    and she will b LOVED =D
    wushu b0i
    secretly wonders why my links r getting longer and longerr and even longerrr=.=
    ;
    g00g|3! rox
    friendster
    ninja-do
    flickr
    youtube
    gamespot
    cnet asia


    >>screamsY
    Name :
    Web URL :
    Message :


    >>pastY
    March 2006
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    January 2007
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    >>creditsY
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