Tuesday, December 12, 2006
ROARRR I actually feel ultra happy after talking with Pum and Pear online...
Because I didn't expect them to be back so soon.
Anyways,
and it's like.
I kind of totally appreciate the fact that they bother to type to us in English now, LOL.
Wahhh it's like I just asked Chula to translate a less than 100 word, (I just counted, 92 word) lil message in English to Thai.
And I spent like 36 minutes copying it onto paper, ROARRRRR it was such hell man.
So before this conversations felt like a chore,
but after I went through the pains of writing in another language I decided that omg it's God's grace to be able to converse in English,
albeit at an unbearably slow speed... LOL ^^
It must have been as agonising for me to write in Thai as it is for them to type in English,
so I guess I'll just have to live with that lor.
Srsly it's like a great deal already. HAHA! ((=
But I don't know eh,
the thing abt talking on MSN is that you never know if the other party feels the same way as you do. And I definitely don't like/ want to be a bother to other people.
To me relationships with other people are built on the basic premise that we are all free, individualistic, independant, autonomous individuals in essence.
We only have obligations to ourselves...
So no one is obliged to treat you well nor you to others,
it's all a matter of choice, of say like, you deciding to befriend this certain person. Or whatsoever.
And so if people are unfair or your kindness is not returned,
it's no big deal. You can always strike off your previous choice because you chose the way you receive+perceive from this world in the first place...
I'm not a person for words,
but if I do like someone and we had a great time together,
I won't go I miss you I want you back in my life that kind of soap opera ultra drama ultra trauma bullshit but I'll do whatever I can to keep in touch,
I mean. What's the use of saying and expressing all these... Heartfelt emotions when you do nothing at all?
And I don't like to be sentimental.
But when I do,
I REALLY mean it. =DD
But sometimes I feel like, in life, to a lot of people, just having the thought is enough. Because we are far too occupied with other priorities to act on them. Or maybe I'm being too cynical+skeptical. =Pp Like I always am... Always thinking the worst of everything under the Sun, HEHHEHHEH.
But,,,well, that's not me...?
Most of the time I just act on impulse.
Like I have the impulse to go excrete uric acid now... OFF then.
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ROARRR looks like I'm in deep shit,
because when I'm not occupied I miss Thailand.
And talking with them on MSN makes me happy.
This is so screwed-up can...? ROARRR
I mean it's just weird for me when I feel the attachment to someone.
And it's not like I've known them forever.
Because I'm more grown to being emotionally-detached... ROARRR!!!
Whatever lar.
Time heals everything,
time tests everything,
time testifies everything...
Gotta rock the house Kboxing tomorrow!!!.....
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I'm so bored now I'm editting my blog.
Think I'll go buy stuff to eat,
then start reading The Reason of Things like I planned to.
No more going out this Friday I guess,
gotta help out with the attachment. ROARRR.
Typed this @ December 13. =Pp
;rock YOU.
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