Sunday, October 15, 2006
Oh my god.
I can't even go into Windows now...
Doing WR @ Tubao's house now. @@
IDIOT lar.
Gonna format my comp. =Pp
I h8 Open House.
The best thing abt it is that it's now over. HOHO!
But I loved the ODAC Jumping.
ERMMM Taking into the air at some pretty-near-2nd-storey-height then hitting some dumb bell suspended in the air on a string in front of you.
It was the BEFORE part that was pretty... Apprehensive.
Once I started running everything was just a blur, my mind's a blank.
And before I knew it I hit the bell real hard then landed and composed myself almost instantaneously.
It so feels like jumping off a building lar.
Only I won't mind doing it over and over again. =DD
Imagine my #.# when Tong Ling told me she told Ms Lee abt it and Ms Lee was like,
Enjiao...ask her go jump from 25th story she also will.
I was extremely ## cuz it was like, HUH!?!?!? WHAT???
But yeah lar.
I wun mind.
Muahaha!!!
I think life is abt EXPERIMENTING!!!
Even if it puts your life on the line,
as long as there's at least a 0.00000001% chance you'll be alive at the end of it,
and as long as it's a REFRESHING experience,
I don't mind. =Pp
That's why I'm not deterred by the military coup in Thai.
That's why I wanna go visit Taiwan... (but no $$)
Where's the fun and purpsoe in leading a peaceful life???
You tell me!?!?!?
So old man...
And I'm still YOUNG. Pretty. Young. =Pp
HMMM
Guess that's abt all?
Can't wait for JC years to be over.
Can't wait to fly overseas.
Singapore is boring the hell out of me.
Ok maybe you have to seek fun yourself.
BUT,
you cannot ignore the effects of the environment as well. =Pp
I've been to like Orchard Suntec Bugis forever. =______=;;
The new Vivocity is nothing much when you think abt it, actually.
It's those same old things...
I just feel increasingly drawn by America.
A nation which knows no modesty, where individualism is at its max, where liberty is utterly free... IMAGINE how much freedom for destruction/ exploration I can have there, MUAHAHA!!!
I mean when you're in Asia you are in Conformist societies...
There's only so much I DARE say/ do/ etc. in view of people around me.
BUT if I'm going to America I'm just going to let all hell break loose...
Or maybe,
become more refined because their freedom is just too scary? LOLLL
Whatever!
I don't give a damn abt things like discrimination...
Because I'm too full of myself to bother. =Pp
HAAH!
WHATEVERRR lar
PW is so annoying >< >< >M<
I wanna watch Lil Miss Sun Shine DEad or Alive Deathnote The Departed etc!
Went out for buffer with 203 girls yesterday.......FULLLLLLest day of my life
Afterwards shopped around,
then afterwards I wasted time with IT peeps. =__=
I was like sitting there feeling pretty lethargic and bored and I really decided ok this is such an utter waste of my life, I could have better use of my time than this...
I think it must be the endless going-outs that's finally starting to bore me...
Movies shopping eating ktv
what else?
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GEEZ
I wanna learn how to curb my outdoor urges...save money...use time more wisely...etc.
it's not like they're gonna help me up the career ladder latter in life, anyways.
I think the thing abt me is that once anything interests me
i'll consume it in excess...instead of moderately.
and that's no good!
besides,
i've finally started wondering
where will all this playing take me?
i play comp like,
go out like a billion times more than an average person.
and it's not enlightening in the ways that philosophy does,
relaxing me in the way music does...etc.
i mean, i think going out moderately is good. shld be encouraged.
but i go out too much =___=;;
such that im growing sian of it now, alsoo...
BERKELEY's WAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
think i'll pay the library a visit later on
hmmm
sometimes i just love spending time with myself, on my own
i think it muz b the needs of an only child
sometimes i feel as if being alone reconnects me to the real me,
recharges me so that i'll have the energy to wear a facade to face this world again.
even thou i tell myself this view will not do, it's too bleak...
but i guess sometimes a person's just himself/herself in spite of himself/herself.
i mean,
i think the best thing abt being on ur own is that there's no one else to care/ bother abt.......HMMM it just makes things easier.
cuz sometimes humans are just like all porcupines in winter.
you huddle together for warmth
and uh-oh!, you get poked.
whateverrr lar
off to continue wr...
AARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
;rock YOU.
2:43 PM
