世界是相對 更是矛盾的
作為人最大的課題
是找到你的點 就是那個點
然後everything will fall into place...
ERMMMMMM
ya
HAAHA!!!!
feel so encouraged by my physics test
hard work does pay off lar!!!
muack muack
FOREVER LOVE MYSELF MANＮＮＮＮＮＮＮＮＮ
but seriously...
i've been switching off since gravitation for physics,
vectors (from da start) for maths,
market failure for econs...
and chemical kinetics for chemistry...
because it's like end of mid-years oredi you see.
GEEZ
and when a major exam is near
i just couldn't focus on school
i need my own environment to pia daooo
to let all my brain wave spark off and stuff lidat...
so, ya
anyways
gotta work hard
mug hard
scholarship (i so regret not taking 4H2 !?!?!?!?!?!dfy127328w3t...and they only let us take 1 H3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... but whateverrr, i'll still do what i can, to the best of my ability....study damn hardddddddddddd for all my subjects)
then post-promos i shall reap all my hardwork and effort.
and feel ultra shiok lar.
who doesn't love the feeling of being smart?
i mean....
it's like you know if you are smart
still, you need to FEEL it. to EXPERIENCE it...
so b shiok.
jiu whateverrrr daooo
im so gonna take h3 maths. (over h3 chem/ h3 physics...)
even if it means that i'll have to do a lot of indepdendant study to catch up and stuff....
the thing is,
i wanna learn economics.
and maths is an indispensible tool for economics.
as well as for pretty much everythign else.
jiuuu maths rock daooo.
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actually the thing is....
i'vee always believed in my own innate ability to assess the difficulty of papers.
one impression indeed very difficult and challenging one was one particular physics question back in chung cheng.
speaking of which,
im so sad for myself to have been taught by...erm not exactly an excellent teacher.
who really made me detest every physics lesson and sleep thru' itlike dunno what.
i have quite a lot to grumble abt that
because i sincerely believed if things happened the other way round then,
i would have gotten my A.
for bio could have been better too.
chemistry was my own mistake... =X it should have been A as well....
but,
whateverrrr lor.
i think o levels and a levels is really do-able cuz they are like so god-damn standardized lar.
that's why you have those top scorers being those who mug everyday every hour every minute every second.
if it was really a test of true intelligence/ iq,
dutiful doing of tys wouldn't get you very far you see.
that's why i never admired any of em...
because I DO sincerely believe if others can do it,
why can't i?
to me,
it's a matter of how much effort im willing to put in...
how much playing time im willing to sarcrifice...
with my own evaluation,
whether i find the utility of good grades at least equal to the marginal cost of my other opportunity costs.... =Pp
HEHHHEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aiyo really very high lar.
hahaha.
it pays to b hard working.
therefore i shall.
cej go go go!!!!!!!!!!
even when i find studying super unberable these days....
i just keep chanting to myself
LSE LSE LSE
(even though i DO seriously feel like i may not be able to make it there at all,
even if my grades can...because of the $$ issue. and 3H2 basically i can say bye bye to scholarships i think.)
but sometimes you just have to ignore everything else
and keep praying for a miracle to happen
and by praying for a miracle to happen i mean doing all that you can,
to make the miracle something highly probable.
for instance to make my dream of going lse a reality there are various means various ways i could work at.
and i will not let anything slip me by............
because i really wanna go to LSE!!!
that's the plank i hold on to (for someone who doesn not know how to navigate the waters of life exactly...) in this ocean of desperation, of endless loss of sleep and hopeless disappointment and stuff. you know.
and i know every effort will increase my chances of getting thereeeeeeeeeeeee
although philosophically one can never truly go from one place to another place,
because every puny distance can be dived into infinite-simally (???) small distancesssss
but life is all about picking and choosing.
you should just be open-minded, liberal, receptive and eerything
embrace everything and anything you see / hear/ touch . ...etc in life.
then with enough first-hand experience and personal wisdom...
as you progress thru' the ages...
you pick and match.
findyour best way out.
be flexible in living and in thinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's what i believe.
nothing is definite.
the only constant is change.
so let us all adapt.
and leave behind a legacy of....
although i loveeee getting all emo (omg first time i use this word) over how we get delivered into this world without our consent
about how if i knew this world was shit i would have protested like hell against being borne (though fact remains that i still really love myself...)
on another hand
if you look at it
if you wanna live thru life all fine and all
mayb we should just accept the fact that we are here
in a mess
don;t try to figure things out
your conscious mind will go bonkers
sometimes you just have to let your wisdom guide your intuition into making the best possible snap judgement... (woo! blink: the power of thinking without thinking)
feel the flow of life.
feel the flow of the life bestowed upon you.
and do what you feel right with it.
with a rational but perceiving mind, you know.
we cannot just b driven simply by our emotions....
because feeling emotions don't give you true happiness...
they give you fleeting pleasures...
i think true happiness is a state of being,
something that you have to constantly remind yourself abt...constantly will yourself to achieve and maintain...
an inner peace and satisfaction
without being laid-back and being so emo that every single thing just sweeps you off your feet
omg this is such a long entry
i feel very inspired mah
anyways i think reading really rocks lar
the more i read the more i love reading
currently reading the world is flat
it's truly amazing...
shall blog abt it some other time
off for my daily bout of entertainment to ease my stress
(tv shows in my comp)
tata!
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