Sunday, July 30, 2006
Finished watching the city of god last night
There's so much violence in the film I just get numbed to it at the end.
All around the streets,
you see kids who barely started puberty drawing guns,
smoking, wine-drinking, killing, robbing, raping. ONly suckers don't turn to crime.
That's their way of life.
IT is an endless cycle of violence,
and in the end everyone who was somehow involved died brutal deaths.
Their corpses lining the streets, drenching the pavements with blood.
countless bullet holes,
cries of pain.
retribution. revenge. betrayal.
madnesssss
based on a real life story.
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lovin' F.I.R.'s new album
bands are cool lar!!!!!!!!
i mean the ROCK ones
symphony band is like so... turn-off. oops did i just say that in the face of an ultra-short symphony band-er? XD
ermmm
anyways i wanted to stay at mac to study slack-ly until 9 plus plus de lar,
but there's this stupid couple there.
muz b from neighbourhood school one.
cuz it's all neighbourhood schools around my area.
想當年年幼無知的我最大的夢想是去 bendemeer secondary sch.
that is like=mjc can. (OH NO i really let my "feelings" for mj show, didn't i?)
anyways that guy damn noisy super irritating lar,
he's like laughing and giggling like some
發春-ing 少女 and rubbing chins with the girl,
and the girl was like trying to get him to b serious.
and in the midst of their
摩擦摩擦 i hear of words like transistors...physics stuff...at times i hear the guy go "heeheehee!!!" "hahaha!!!" ultra high-pitch, laughing at the girl's dumbness supposedly. and the thing is, she IS dumb.
omg i so cannot tahan the guy i gave up my
偉大 studying just to flee from em as far as possible lar, GEEZ!
it's like IRRITATING daoooooooooooooo
anyways
the thing i realise abt studying is that,
well,
it's the decision to start and really sit down to study that's most difficult for me.
cuz i keep on thinking,
5 more minutes! and as we all know, time is relative.
so 5 more minutes of comp=endless hours in real-time.
and that's what happens.
i can never do anything decent at home. (sounds weird.)
so what i have to, i must do,
is simply make a trip down to mac's. ((=
hoho and then i'll stay there for pretty long cuz i love the air-con.
and before the thoughts of omg studying sucks, this is so nerdy and un-cool, i am supposed to be able to do damn well even if i dun study at all,
i start thinking.
ok.
if it takes a big-time mugger full-time nerd to be a LSE-student at the end of jc,
i'll do it willingly whole-heartedly with all my mind body and soul.
and come on,
face it.
people who indulge in fashion and self-destruction at this age will not grow up to be ceos or whatsoeverr high-cls peoples.
and those are the people with all the power to change the world, squash you like an ant.
so it's cool in the long run.
we gotta see FARRRRRRRRRRRR.
i keep on thinking ah bengs and ah lians now who think they are cool they rock the world just because they skip sch smoke drink take drugs etc. will grow up to become factory.. erm, i mean, production workers. HMM. manual labour for coolness, how's that???
ok i think i exposed my strong underlying prejudice/ a certain assumptions yet again...
but there!
- i'm sure i made sense.
the process now and everything kind of sucks.
but once i see it as the trials and turbulations i have to go through and endure before i'm certified and ready for my dream, London School of Economics,
i'll tahan you! mugger jc!!!
Well,
between letting fate lead us in its mysterious ways
and feeling so broken inside because you want to change everything else.
i seriously feel that the best philosophy to adopt is,
to have the SERENITY to accept the things you cannot change.
and the COURAGE to change those that you can.whatever you do,
never give up.
because a last thing a human ought to do is to give up on himself/ herself.
if you think you are at the WORST possible situation in life,
it's the WORST, is it not?
meaning things can only go BETTER from there. ((=
if it's not yet the WORST,
then that* is a call for celebration.
人類的堅強,生命的韌性.是超越想像的.我們所需要作的,就是擁有漠視一切的信仰.我知道我不是最好的.我相信我是最棒的.生命的價值不是既在,即有的.生命的價值在於追求.體現於奮鬥.one of my most favourite poems all-time
Look to this day!
For it is life, the very life of life,
In its brief course
Lie all the verities and realities of your existence:
The bliss of growth
The glory of action
The splendor of beauty,
For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterdaya dream of happinessAnd every tomorrow a vision of hope.Look well, therefore, to this day!
Such is the salutation of the dawn.
by
Kalidasa, Indian Dramatist hmm
if i wanna b in lse
actually i should aim for harvard =Pp
~
omg i feel so intellectual so full of wisdom.
erm,
i mean...
i AM
haha!
Hope is a good thing. Maybe the best of things. And a good thing never dies.- from The Shawshank Redemption
I think this movie is HIGHLY SERIOUSLY worth a catch
because it's REALLY illuminating on how a lil hope can change what appears to be the worst of situationsssss... ((=
it's the story of a guy whose wife cheated on him,
who was accused of murdering the wife and the lover.
at first when i saw the opening i was like HUH!? appears like an ultra blue movie.
and no one good-looking in sight lar!
but at the end of it i really loved it.
and that says a lot.
because I NEVER like films without shuai ge/ chio bu one =Pp
gotta go do more work!!!!!
i wanna get All As for PROMO!!!
LALALALALA
i'll make my assumption a true condition, HOHO!
aah F.I.R. rocks
aah can't wait for S.H.E's concert to Singapore
aah i wanna learn kickboxing/ fencing/ electric guitar/ soccer/ cooking/ some more it skills/ how to grow taller etc. (dun ask me what's up wif the sudden interest in everything under the sun)
aah i wanna read more books, nutritional reading, brush up on my rusty chinese...
so much things i wanna do.
but biggest priority for now till end of promos,
all As.
baby.
you can do it. (to myself)
because im me. woot!
;rock YOU.
8:48 PM
