Sunday, July 16, 2006
tile painting the other day
spot the 2 for $1... HAHAHA
proudly brought to u by...2 persons who refused to disclose their particulars. XD
ip zoneeeeee
i tried lyk more than 5 pieces of clothes? or whateverr???
n bought none HAHAHA although i sincerely think i looked great in everything LOL!!!
well
went studying today
a lil, then it's shopping!!!!!!!!
love it when i can spend money freely lar.
finally.
got loads of stuff.
and im not even done yet.
gotta hitttt back da place some time ((=
anyways watched a few episodes of dark angel
jessica alba roxxxxxxx
rock rock rockkkk
"the bitch is back!" =Pp
anyways im starting to think sociology is cool too.
i like the part when it explains how RELATIVE social mobility has not changed
how education is closely linked to social class and stuff.
because that is my POINT,
what i DISCOVER in life, all along
you get borne into a great family and all.
you're life's secured forever.
while kids from dysfunctional families have to deal with issues of poverty, low self-esteem, they aspire only as much as to do the same kind of jobs their parents does, people give 'em labells discretely and they SELF-FULFILL these labels, when society does not give em enough room as always is the case to move up the social ladder, they go into COUNTER behaviour whereby whatever that society rejects and labels unto em becomes the dominant traits of their own sub-culture, they are marginalised, misunderstood, unheard, full of rage and discontent and sadness inside but the words wun come out, it's like they're hardened to take pride in the fact that nothing ever breaks em, and etc. etc.
geez.
life just sucks lar.
the world we live in is a social construction.
there is no absolute truth.
there is no God.
when we lived in the ancient past,
whereby a person's role is rigid and predefined the mmt he/ she is borne,
there were all these issues of suppression.
then as we live in an age of modernisation now,
we seek success.
and suffer from the ultimate delusion and alienation of a modern human.
i mean,
everything's just sick and twisted.
and profoundly wrong.
when you stop looking at the world as a fairytale.
what is there to live for?
to me,
living is nothing but an endless series of self-deception.
a whole pack of nothing but lies. GEEEEEZ
i couldn't care less but i want to care
i don't wanna do this but i want myself to want to do it
i wanna be a social reject because i think life basically sucks and there is something seriously wrong with the way things are going and rejecting it is my protest but i wanna act, live like a normal happy human as well
i wanna be as superficial as possible yet i dig up books trying to seek the ultimate truth to life
i wanna hate someone,
but i think not.
i wanna love whole-heartedly,
but im cynical.
i wanna stop tinking,
and yet i ponder more.
i don't want to be me.
but maybe that's part of being me.
;rock YOU.
10:30 PM
