Tuesday, June 27, 2006
I'm supposed to be studying.
And I ended up thinking about a lot of things. And kept on going around in circles.
I think life is simply funny.
Tragedically funny.
Sometimes you think you've out live, out done it all.
Yet at the end of the day some things haunt you forever.
AAAAARGH
I wanna pack my bag and 離家出走 and get away from all that sickening studying and everything.
AARGH!!!
Sometimes I really feel like staying out all day, all night.
And never coming back.
But, no money no nothing lar.
At the end of the day I'd still be home sleeping.
I just don't wanna wake up to another day, the same old life.
All those things that can never be changed.
Having to brave yourself through another day.
I just feel like...
It's either life will destroy me or I'll destroy my own life someday.
As in, quit school and everything. And all those sort of (omg it freaks me out to think about them) behaviour.
I don't know.
It's just anger, and stuff I think.
Actually I really wonder how all those people feel like.
I mean, do they do all those crap because they think it's cool...
Or it's like, you're just driven to such stuffs.
Cuz it's like...
Why can't I just let go?
Why do I bloody care about having a good degree, a decent job next time, good grades, good behaviour, etc... When at the end of the day, I still don't see where I'm heading.
How much does one have to go in order to break away from somewhere that you're borne into, and tied to for life?
I just don't get this whole... HUMAN thing.
But HMM
Even if I do wanna be outside like don't know what.
I don't wanna wake up in somebody else's bed, GEEZ.
You know, like in all those dramas.
But it's like whateverrr.
I just feel like, omg why should I give a damn about anything man!?!?!?
It's like...
All I want is to be independant of this world.
WHATEVERRRRR lar.
Everything kind of suck at the mmt.
;rock YOU.
11:04 AM
