Monday, June 19, 2006
Omg sai daooo.
Went out with Kel and Jan today, wanting to study.
ERRR. We ended up talking so much, telling jokes and etc. the studying was literally OMG.
Shit larrr.
I have like less than a week left and my revision is like ~10%.
I didn't even TOUCH Maths & Chemistry at all.
SECRETLY reluctant to do so.
AARGH.
I wanna take H3 lar.
Cuz I seriously wanna be eligible for overseas scholarships.
Cuz I am seriously dying to get out of HERE, and be somewhere else.
The Grass is always greener on the other side.
I always like NEW places.
Adjustment could be hard.
But I look forward to all those changes, metamorphosis... Stuff like that, you know.
I think that's what makes a person whole.
And I don't wanna be fragmented. And underperforming.
But I'm really like.
If only I had the $$$.
It's like ah-derrr I was like totally YAYAYA when some long long time ago Sheau Wei said poor people, or those who don't have the $$$, have to practically work like DOGS to get what they want.
It's like OMG the moment I heard it I was like YEAH! That is so damn bloody freaking right.
That's why I remembered it.
I mean.
Why would I bother studying like hell if I have enough money to go overseas instantly now huh, HUH. And look at it this way. Rich people get whatever they want. Great tuition, good studying environment, etc. with all the money they have. Consequently it gives them an edge in education.
MERITOCRACY???
I pui.
I pui pui pui.
I'm not cynical for no reason.
I'm cynical because if the Earth were a 100 men village...
60% of its wealth would be in the hands of 6 people, and all of them American.
And etc.
This is quoted from a book 'K.
But the thing is...
2 in this 100 would have at least one computer.
AND
Only 1 of these 100 would receive Tertiary education.
Geez.
I, you, we are so blessed.
But that's no reason to stop there, count our blessings and never think of improving.
I'm for Nietsczhe (?). Sublimation.
Ever striving to be better.
Rising above your petty desires and stuff like that.
But I'm lazy lar.
WHAT THE HECK!!!
Feeling really crappy larrr.
Gotta be out tml all day somemore.
What the shit.
I regret not spreading my studies over the holiday.
But then it's always like that.
When do I ever learn? GO KNOCK YOUR HEAD AGAINST THE WALL, Chen Enjiao.
You're letting yourself down.
Oh. Anyways.
The one reason I really want to be overseas is simply that I want to immerse myself in Western culture. Widen my horizons. Learn more. Come into touch with more stuffie!
I really like their super liberal attitude lar.
And the individualism.
Though I can anticipate feeling really stressed-up there???
But when that is what I KNOW I want,
it doesn't bother me.
What bothers me is being stuck with something that I don't desire and there's no escaping.
OMG feel like swearing. Current situation.
What the... *beep!*.
;rock YOU.
9:43 PM
