Friday, May 05, 2006
OMG, I went back CCHMS today. In the end.
Was torn between going for movie, going for SPA, and going back to CCHMS in school today.
Then I decided. OK. Alright. SPA's the only thing that I sho totally can't miss. I can always do the rest on some other days... So I stayed back for Spa with Mildred and Tong Ling.
But the wait darn long larrr.
And we were totally sho slack lar...
Anyways, then when Gordon called me, that was when I totally lost it.
Cuz he said a lot of people are coming. Then instantly names like Grass, Juliet, *** and etc. popped to mind. If you don't see your name here REALLY it's because you don't seem like the going-back person to me... HAHAHA. =P
Whole world's missed 'k!!!
And I thought Dan was gonna be there also lar.
Kelvin's like bugging me forever about something that I think is sho... I'm innocent! =X
So when I heard from Gordon; she wants to maple at home...
I was like... !!!!!!!!!!! Waddahell. I could NEVER understand her obession with MAPLE lar. AARGH!!!
Then as more people came it was really damn fun lar!
We went nuts around the school taking photos, shooting MVs, basically crazy. =D =D =D
We dumped our bags in the MIDDLE of the ROAD at the ASSEMBLY SQUARE, then cheong-ed to the lakeside to take photos... Like MAD!!!
WOO!!!
Darn glad I went back lar.
Cuz I feel so revitalize, full of life and all. ((=
Woo!
We DIAMOND!!! Harder than rock!
Afterwards went movie-ing with Gordon, Demon, Mimi and Tubao.
Mission Impossible III.
When they were like you wanna go MI 3? --- I was completely, HUH!? Men In Black 3!?!?!?
WOO!
I love today like dunno-what lar.
Basically I had ~2 hrs of sleep the night before.
And I DO feel really pretty hyped-up in the morning.
Then somehow I just started decomposing.
And until I saw more and more of those faces that I've been missing for months...
I'm like; AAH!!!!! =D
Omg I feel so flower-hearted aka hua xin now.
Cuz I love everyone. ((=
艾唷算了偶就應該唆中文訴嗎!!! XD
就路上我風塵僕僕帶著我心愛的重到不行重到連地球都會失衡的bag趕去中正有沒有.
大有一種,快與分手幾百萬年可還是眷戀+埋怨的戀人再見面的意味.夠想像了吧.
在巴士上的時候,我思想稍微涉及JC的艱辛還有曾經那些無憂無慮到可以吐血的日子我真的是...一煞那,整個人眼眶就溼熱了起來.
因為我真的不想張大.就算是歷經了滄桑.
我最想做個沒心沒肺,無法無天,得意得像個賊的死孩子.
每天和我喜歡的人,大聲地笑尖聲地叫放肆地鬧.
我覺得人就是經歷過太多事情後反而會希望自己可以更笨,更後知後覺一點.
But 那種...稍微感性的片段也是轉瞬即逝.
因為我在眼淚成行之前把想法扼殺在那裡.
然後買泡泡茶.然後進學校.
然後說廢話,拼命38.八卦.拍照.
我們真是一群無敵自戀的人. "1,2,3!!" 然後每人表情各異.WE ROCK larrr. Like dunno-what.
然後為校歌拍MV.
在湖邊拍MV.
和旗合照.WE ROCK until ROCK would shun us in shame cuz we ROCK more than rock does larrr. XD
Aah!
I love those guys.
So Shy. :$ :$ :$
Well.
I miss those times we sat together during recess and terrorized the entire area with our voice+laugher.
I miss those times we dirty-talked, when our conversations were full and fraught with "body parts".
I miss those times we walked that shuper long walk back home. Runnind around, pulling hairs... Singing S.H.E songs like nobody's business... On the way.
I miss taking self-portraits on the bus back home from Chung Cheng.
I miss bitching about celebrity gossips, and claiming that all the shuaige/ chio bu under the Sun are oursss...
And etc. lar.
I miss the EXTREME childishness.
Note: EXTREME.
To me, the saddest thing about life is that one can be laughing the whole-day long.
But it's not like he/ she cares, huh.
Sometimes it's just like a gesture to the world that; OH will you leave me along because I'm living super fine. People laugh when they're happy, so when I laugh I'm supposed to be happy. But there really is nothing much to it.
That's shuper sad and ironical lar.
But I believe that ultimately. Life is a test of your acting skills.
Really...? REALLY. REALLY!!!
Hide your face so the world will never find you...
Wear a mask so that the world will never know you...Anyways there was so much crap going around I have to blog about it.
After movie we took bus together.
Poor Mimi kept on getting
hurt by us, HAHA. SORRIE lar. I know you don't mind. ;)
He like some... Ah beh with receding hairline lar!!! =DD
Thursday after school was really great also.
Cuz I was hanging out with my class peeps!
We were like the only table making ALLTHEnoise in the canteen leh! LOL.
...SHUPER cool lar~~~
WOO!
就真的我最近充斥著一種很惆悵的情緒有沒有.
儘管我人生一直都惆悵得很可以,本人是徹底的悲觀主義.
然後又很戲劇化地低調著我的個人主張.
我覺得快樂不算甚麼,笑容只是一個嘴角上揚的弧度,內容只有空白.
我覺得我是保持著一種無可奈何,既悲憤且悲壯既感慨且不甘地過活的人.
我知道战争 是一个人的
悲伤 是无声的
幸福是假的
虚伪是真的
沒甚麼是永恒的
一切都在對立
痛並快樂著
努力生命的同時也在逐漸遠離所有溫暖的回憶
越擁有越失去
越懂得越脆弱
越快樂越難過
在某年某月某一天 所有的年華被寄往一處遙遠的地址
找不到也回不去
儘管我很深切地渴望人生可以停留在一個事件點.
定格在一個充斥著幸福的暖意的瞬間.
可是沒有永遠.
所以我只能上路.
只能是過客.
那些風沙揚起又落下的微小聲音,是我不變的追逐.
流浪是永恆的歸宿.
就我真的是存在於一種很矛盾性的思想之類的裡面,有沒有???
There is no one truth...
All truth is relative.
There is more than one way of looking at things...
Cuz we have different perspectives.
What is good, what is evil?
Happiness? Freedom? Love? Friends? Success? etc...
- They are all just humanly manifestations given meaning only when examined under a Social context... Everything is holistic in its very own existence, tied to one another through an invisible web. The butterfly effect. Actions and reactions. Karmas. Determinism. Darwinism. And all the chim terms... XD
Ooh. I'm digressing into my academic/ intellectual areas of interest once again... XD
Vaporize my negativities away...
;rock YOU.
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